Just today I decided to write, I feel that no one is waiting and that gives me some peace. I'm a little rusty, but what can be done. I feel this year was a big disappointment. I was a big disappointment to myself, unmotivated and useless.
I have twenty years, a lot of dreams and this stagnant and mediocre. I'm exactly half of the school. When I started from the beginning I said that was because I really wanted to learn, but it is more difficult than I thought. Toto, it looks like we're not in the CCH. This semester I took five courses of sciences (my worst nightmare). I failed three and most of my teachers are literally disturbed disoriented and in some cases outright sadists who do not teach anything.
Everybody tells me that third and fourth semester is the most bastard, I can. But I can not panic, and when that happens my defense mechanism is to abort the mission, put the autopilot and send everything to hell. I know that is worse, but it is almost impossible to avoid. I miss
Milks. According to him going back to school, but almost never see. Now that I have friends in the room distracted me more than ever. I have fear.
I stopped writing in part out of laziness, partly because of depression, but mostly by paranoia. I feel that I become vulnerable publicly confessed, which is ironic, because I also think it is the only way to tell the truth as it is. Maybe it means that truth is dangerous, not only in itself, but also for who says it.
Anyway, I have lots of pictures I want to share, I have things I want to make his trial, but the fact that a malicious anonymous knows me too I find disturbing.
regret the disaster that is my blog, but if I take comfort in the misfortune of others, know that this is a direct reflection of my life. Do not want to waste and everything I am, but it's hard when you're your own worst enemy. I'm seriously considering
a restructuring of this blog and most importantly, it changes by Tumblr blogger. What do you think?
restructure And what I mean letting go the reins and post what it is and how it feels, I dunno, let the momentum take the reins. There are more who have not seen me and probably a good way to more safely share my ideas.
I hope your year was better than mine, I heartily thank the time they devoted to this reading and good, see you soon.
While I'm pondering my future, my present and my past. I have to get out of here.
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